Pee'e mai chu, mai chu, mai chueah (I don't believe in ghosts)My original topic for this blog was ghosts, Thai ghosts in particular. But as it becomes time to write, I find that once again the winds of transition are stirring my landscape. Living in a Buddhist country, I shall take my clue from the Middle Way and address both topics, but neither to obsession.
Thailand, and most of Asia it seems, is a land steeped with a tradition of ghosts. An informal poll among my students reveal an 80% belief rate. This rate seems only to increase with an older demographic.
When I was living in a temple in North Eastern Thailand, there was a room the size of a walk-in closet in my home. Rather than containing clothes, it stored the bones and ashes of the departed. I grew accustomed to the occasional knock at my door, and the respectful request to enter and pay respects to a relative.
Most of my Thai friends were aghast at this arrangement, and just the discussion of it could cause the hair on their arms to rise in apprehension.
Recently I was at a job fair that was hiring Thai students to work in the States for their school break. One of the employers, a hospital and nursing home, was having trouble attracting applicants until it was explained that they would not be in contact with dying patients, and thus ghosts.
Two months after the 2004 tsunami, I was living in Phuket, one of the islands devastated by the killer wave. None of my Thai friends came to visit. Ghosts....
Now, three years later, Phuket is rebuilt and the tourist numbers have returned. Except for Taiwan and Korea, whose arrivals are still down 90%. Ghosts....
Not surprisingly, there have been many post-tsunami ghost sightings in Phuket. During the stage of body recovery, a number of volunteers heard tourists laughing and singing on the beach, only to find the area dark and deserted. Other sightings include a woman crying for her child along the shore. More than one taxi driver in Phuket claims to have picked up a foreigner and his Thai girlfriend, with all their baggage, only to have them disappear before reaching the airport.
Some mental health experts believe that these sightings are a culturally effective way of dealing with the massive death toll and horrible sights that the tsunami caused. Thai psychologist Wallop Piyamanotham says the ghost sightings are a "type of mass hallucination that is a clue to the trauma being suffered by people who are missing so many dead people, and seeing so many dead people, and only talking about dead people."
The average Thai seems to have a less cerebral take on the issue.
Ghost are also an accepted part of the Buddhist doctrine that is widespread in Thailand. Ghosts are considered to be one of the six realms of existence among sentient beings (humans beings are another).
Personally, I have had no ghostly encounters during my time in Thailand, not even with bones and ashes in my closet. I tell my friends that Thai ghosts are shy around foreigners.
But I do have stories from elsewhere, as most of us do....
I was living in a small town in Northern California, and one day I was driving around with the friend who had rented my house before me. He talked about how the light in the bedroom would go off and on at unexpected times. He said that his girlfriend of the time had an explanation for the this: It was her spirit guide, wanting to contact her.
That night, laying in my bed and listening to music, I thought, 'why not try to get in touch with my spirit guide?' I was only half, maybe a quarter, serious, and I wondered if I should get up and turn off the music so I could more fully concentrate. But, mostly as a way of dismising the whole endeavor, I had the distinct thought that 'if my spirit guide wants to talk with me, IT can turn off the music. Instantly the tape player clicked off. It clicked off mid-song, which it had never done before and never did since. Of course, being totally unprepared for anything really
happening, I quickly got up, turned on the lights, and read a book until dawn.
There is a Chinese saying: "If we do no evil in the day, we need not worry about ghosts knocking on our doors at night. The ghosts outside of us are not nearly as frightening as the ghosts inside of us."
As far as my own world view goes, I am neither a believer nor disbeliever of ghosts. I do believe however, that it is a human tendency to draw a small line through reality and say that this is all there is. The truth, I think, is much wider.
Part Two: Winds of Change
There is an incessant influx of novelty into the world, and yet we tolerate incredible dullness. -Henry David ThoreauSince changes are going on anyway, the great thing is to learn enough about them so that we will be able to lay hold of them and turn them in the direction of our desires. Conditions and events are niether to be fled from or passively acquiesced in; they are to be utilized and directed. -John DeweyThe New Year is about to begin, and I am halfway through the current semester at the Thai university where I teach. Something tells me that when the semester finishes, I should finish as well. No blaring sirens or flashing lights accompany this sense. Just a small still voice, encouraging me further down the road.
Here is what I envision, but this new chapter is still in changing form and may morph considerably before occuring.
I will work here until April; grading the final tests, divesting of possesions, clearing up lose ends. In April itself I will do some Thai travelling, both in the north and in the south, in the mountains and on the sea. Then the long flight back to America.
Visits with friends and family in early May, followed by a three month job somewhere beautiful (maybe with the help of coolworks.com). In August I plan to hike the John Muir Trail in the Sierra's, something I first did (gulp) 35 years ago.
In September, begin teaching in China, maybe in one of their autonomous regions such as Mongolia or Tibet. This will pave the way for a future dramatic exit either by train to Europe, or overland into Nepal.
As I said, this new chapter is still in changing form. But now as I go about my days, I will become a magnet to the freedom of new possibilities. Some may be brief flights of fancy, and some may lay the groundwork for my future direction.
By next blog, this direction should have a more solid form.
Happy New Year!